Insomniac Variations
The deathly quiet of sleeping people gives way To the morning air And my uncoagulated brain Floods my skull and thrums and coats my lungs And I breathe the vapor of my faculties On every atom of daylight
The deathly quiet of sleeping people gives way To the morning air And my uncoagulated brain Floods my skull and thrums and coats my lungs And I breathe the vapor of my faculties On every atom of daylight
The car is running, Mary Beth, The soot is coming, Throw the beans in the trunk, And leave the furs out front,
Lovers are blithe, and weary with joy, and poised by ease. Wear on their soul marks the years, the untiring years, And when the tireless tire Their lies are honeyed and giving and true, “For I grow old and stale and bored,”
Now I am not alone, Just less, More abstract in mind, Less you or I than people, Fewer springs than seasons, Knowing less and being infinitely wiser.
The air is pale and worn
And lacking the essence of anything
But very modern and often brown
And public
And I wonder what I think about that
I grow old with the turn of a page
Learning the youth of other men
Who strained the virgin years
Of life untold
Never owing hope a second's worth
Of intermission.
You presume to measure a Man by his lack,
By the creak of his will,
Well-starched, well-pressed,
And the girdle that binds his loins;
The life he spares
Through passions scarce,
It’s a quarter to 7 and the draught runs cold,
I store my day on legal sheets,
Bide my time and count the words,
And count them with no small measure of contempt,